random fact #1 i just read this really sad poem that lewis carol wrote at the beggining of 'through the looking glass' and it is soo sad! he was in love with her! but they were 'half a life assunder'
isn't that so sad! and horrible!
i am kind of shocked...i mean.. i knew that he was sort of creepy in a child loving sort of way.. but it was only today that i found proof!
i mean.. maybe he wasn't serious. but still.. it seems really sad and creepy. :((
welll anywayss...

random fact #2 sometimes math really bothers me.
sometimes it just gets on my nerves!

oh so guess what! princess and the frog is like the best movie ever! i loved it! ! ! ! it was so sweet and inspiring and great!

ok... there is this series of books about these cat worriors.. and they look really good. they are called like.. moon.. and twilight.. and the midnight and stuff like that..
i really want to read them..
anyways..
right now i feel like.. sometimes things just go bad.. sometimes things are strange and sad.. and there is not really much you can do about it.. but you just have to keep going.
oh i heard this saying.. thats like.. butterflies over the amazon can stir up a hurricane on the other side! i thought that was amazing..

** sometimes i feel like. .. like dreams are so hard to get. like.. how is it that some people are so lucky.. and others aren't. i supposed its destiny or whatever.
but.. there is all this work you have to do for your dream carreer. . but what if you do all that.. and then you hate your dream! it would be horrible!
anywayss.. i have decided to just follow my dreams anyways.. and if they fail.. then i can just start over.. sort of..
well anyways..
if anwyone is reading this. there is something really random and out of context that i have to say. - everything happens for a reason. even when you make the biggest mistake and you hate yourself for it.. there is something amazing and awesome that will come from it! (ok. over)
:)

if you are reading this out of sheer interest, then continue. if you are reading it to be a nice person, or a suck up, then stop. this is a blog specificaly for emotional rants...artsy moments...a blog for feeling. so if it creeps you out.. or you think that it was vain of me to be writing about myself...just.. just don't read it anymore. its not a people centered blog. it all revolves around my cerebrum. anyway. yeah.

random fact #1the summer is very malignant right now. its very stark. for some reason, puffy white clouds in a baby blue sky seem so stark and...creepy somehow. if you have ever seen the imaginarium of dr. parnassus, you would understand. it has that dreamy strange creepiness to it. like you don't know whats going to happen next.
i almost like things like that. i don't know why.
but anyway..

random fact #2sometimes i get upset. because i feel like the person i love deosn't love me back. i guess everyone has felt like that. but sometimes its very overwhelming! i just don't understand. ye know what i mean? sometimes i'm just like, 'could you please just...at least give me a small clue...just to tell me that you are still a tiny tad not hating me!?' but...its complicated.

random fact #3 i think that swimming in the pool is a very fun thing to do. it feels like your going to sleep. like the water is just rushing, you just feel your body, you don't talk or anything.. you just kind of let your mind bleed out into the water, and your thoughts swirl around like fish. they swirl and come back in, and then you come out feeling like your mind has been cleaned, and you feel good.
or you have really good ideas about the stories your writing in the pool. like i don't know why, but the water like flowing over your head, and breathing rythmicaly, and moving all combined must do something, like, you just go into your brain, and think of all different things. anyways, i recommend swimming. :)

random fact #4 if you are ever bored in a public place, put on some reflective sunglasses, get out a pen and pencil/pen and study people. one person at a time though mind you. figure out random facts. i call it playing sherlock holmes. you try to figure out as much as you can about them just by random stuff. like.. they are married,... they are very healthy, they are obsessed with fashion, they easily give into pier pressure.. they fear gaining wait (so they are eating like..salad or something) just random cool stuff. its really interesting.
well anyway... random facts are done, and i will write more later.